January 2011
122 posts
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I went back to my room and tried to make myself decent to be hugged and cried on by the people downstairs. Bastards. What the hell were they expecting to get out of me? I had no answers! I mean I had just barfed at the sight of his face. I sat in our room a while longer crying and screaming. After putting on some pants and a shirt, I went down the stairs in to the pool of people just watching me....
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take us away from here to somewhere beautiful. take us to places we’ve never been, and let us become who we want to be. places where pain doesn’t exist. where we don’t exist. we don’t need to. where we won’t care.
I'm tired.
I procrastinate a lot. I’m the master at that shit. I really need to stop though because it makes me tired. And I also lose friends. Leaving them in places when I was supposed to pick them up and what not. oh well. On my way =p
HERES TO PROCRASTINATION.
We are golden, lets not waste it.
Do-do-do-do-dodododododadadadadado-do. You know what song I’m talking about? First person to guess wins n00dz. (justkiddingbecauseimselfconciousofmybodynotmymanlypart.itsperfectlynormalsize.veryproprtionaltomybody.[dontworryaboutthesize.ITSFINEyouthinkitssmallnow.wellitsnot.illsendyouapic])
anyone takers?
i need some new shoess. thats not weird that i like shoes. lots of guys like shoes ok? its normal. i like shoe shopping. so what? im thinking vans. what do you guys think? ..perfectly normal.
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After a few minutes of crying and looking at the ceiling, I finally had enough control to lift myself out of bed. I glanced over at the empty bed across the room and felt sick. I ran to the bathroom and threw up. I didn’t know there was people down stairs listening. (lurks) After the regergatation of last nights brownies, cake, whiskey, and muffins, I looked in the mirror… Which made me more sick....
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One day I just woke up and things werent the same anymore. I’m not one to cry, but with that thought… I cried. I hate waking up alone it makes me feel cold. Literally my body is cold and shivering. That day I was alone though. There was no one by my side, and no one in the bed across the room. I was alone. I tried to lift my body up but my mind was to lost to instruct my limbs. You...
Story time.
I’m going to tell you guys a story. It’s not going to be all at once. I’ll number the parts. And maybe I’ll post a section every day, maybe every other day or week. I don’t know. Just when I feel like it. If you don’t get it, I don’t care. I just have to get this out of my head. Because over the past 3 months it’s all I’ve been thinking about.
we've all lost that innocence that we had when we...
picnicinparadise:
A cheery song to cheer you up...
I will smile. Really big. Like I mean it. Because I like to smile and sometimes it makes other people smile and i like to make others smile. Because when they smile theres a little less misery in the world.
tr-bal asked: Oh my God your post about girls! Are you an angel lol?
Ladies do you know how wonderful you are? Just lovely to be around. You don’t know what you do for a guy. You make us feel like not everything is crap. With just your smile alone, you make our day a little bit better. And when you hug us and the scent of your hair gets our attention. Our bodies pressed tightly against eachother, you have too much control.
idk maybe this is just me being...
Dear tumblr,
I HATE YOUR GUTS! STOP UNFOLLOWING PEOPLE. My followers will think I’m bipolar, unloving, and just mean. Sorry everyone! ITS NOT ME! So if ive unfollowed you then followed you again, its cuz tumblr hates me. and is trying to turn you all against me.
Getting out of bed is so hard when you have nothing to look forward to. idk I just can’t seem to pick myself up since Brian died. I still blame myself, I always will. But You would to if you were me. I’ve been trying to do productive things but everything just seems like such a waste. Any suggestions? I need someone to tell me what I’m supposed to do. Thats pathetic huh? Maybe...
Anonymous asked: POST A PICTURE OF YOURSELF!
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A lot more gets said on tumblr. I don’t talk to my friends and family about the stuff I say on here. Tumblr is my outlet. My way of getting off my back what would normally just eat me alive. I just wanted to thank all of you for making me feel comfortable enough to let this all out. It means everything to me that someone out there is reading and relating to what I’m going through. So...
Anonymous asked: omggg you know thunder in real life?!? OMG. is she cute irl??
I heard them say, love is the way Love is the answer, that’s what they say, But look how they treat us, make us believers …We fight their battles, then they deceive us Try to control us, they couldn’t hold us Cause we just move forward like Buffalo Soldiers
Last night I didn't have to drink myself to sleep.
Anonymous asked: oh hey elephant man i want to be as optimistic as you but i dont have that much in me
LET IT ALL GO.
All that terrible crap that happened last week, last month, last year… LET IT GO. Because obviously it is weighing you down. And at this point don’t you think its just easier on your heart to let it go? It’s time to be happy again. Its time to be strong ladies and gentlemen.
Regain your passion and focus. Because today, we move forward.
I'M GONNA MAKE RICE CRISPIES TOMORROW!
Does anyone know how to make them?
I don't have a title.
dangdonkey:
Don’t let things get so bad that it physically wears you out and makes you sick. You will struggle through tough times, its a part of life. You will hear those words forever. You can’t keep things bottled up forever, and once you have to face them it is going to hurt. But don’t reject that pain. Let it make you stronger.
I need to remember this.
nelliox93:
The Scientist -Coldplay.
"Come up...
I want this!!!!!!
amberandfriends:
i am no one to be proud of.
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venting.
How could you be so heartless? What we had wasn’t perfect. Mostly on my half. But I’m just a guy what did you expect? But we were beautiful. You opened me up. Do you know that? You fixed me. You helped me through so much you dont even know. And I fucking HATE YOUR GUTS for leaving me like you did. You knew me so well… How could you not check up on me? How could you not just see...
im so afraid.
what the hell am i going to do? i think im going to disapoint everyone. and that, my dear friends, is the worst part. I can handle the liver damage, heart ache, and the over all pain. but knowing ive let my parents down. that is enough to kill me.
When you lose something you can’t replace When you love someone, but it goes to waste Could it be worse?
smells like cheese. i cant sleep under these circumstances.
one of the hardest things you'll ever do in your...
ohmygodsomeweirdo asked: You know, I don't remember.
But you're fergalicious.
But you're fergalicious.
this song in my head.
it goes duhn duhn duhn chh chh duhn chh chh dun dun chhh doo chh chh. the words are hard to remember because duhn duhn duhn. pause. chh.
I'm the F to the E-R-G-the I-the-E.
Me.
I feel lost but I’ll keep going. I’m afraid of the world, but I’ll stand strong. She makes me feel strong, confident, found. I’m in love with lust. I find beauty in chaos, and life in death. I’m afraid I’ll never be happy. She makes me happy in a dangerous way. Inside my empty shell she numbs me. But I don’t think without her. I am lost without the...
“And I’m afraid
To sleep because of what haunts me
Such as living with...”
– City and Colour
This world is only gonna break your heart What a wicked game to play, to make me feel this way. What a wicked thing to do, to let me dream of you. What a wicked thing to say, you never felt this way.
Anonymous asked: Aha, this is beyond random, but I just saw you post something about people on Tumblr being cute, and you not being cute, but I think by your icon, you look like quite the sweetheart. :X